The past couple weeks I’ve been really looking into addiction and disordered eating. I took a test and realize that’s what my problem is- I am an addict and have disordered eating. Many things I thought that were normal are NOT. That’s why I haven’t been succeeding- I do super well for awhile and then hit the ditch. Not bad, but enough to start the noise and cravings and have to start over which is sooo hard. I need to abstain for good and find other ways to cope with my emotions.
I think that realizing I have a serious problem will keep me strong now. I hate it. I hate that I can’t handle “just one” and never will. I hate that I will never eat some of my favorite treats ever again. If I want food freedom, I need to do this. I don’t care about weight loss at this point. I want to recover. I want the food noise and cravings to go away, to have that final Day 1. I want health-both mind and body.
I know I need accountability too and that’s why I love you all. The support here is amazing. 🥰
This is a short burst of motivation (6 minutes). I just discovered this podcast and it’s very helpful-wanted to share. I like that they are short.
https://open.spotify.com/episode/09zIUNiKGcT1JoKA2H5bpf?si=IsaDMtOGTFOjZRSXgT6Caw
Happy Saturday! I hope you are all doing well. I know some people in the group have had some recent tough news for themselves or family members. It really puts the day to day issues we face into perspective, and reminds me to just focus on doing the best I can to be as healthy as possible. To those who are having a hard time, we are all here for you and sending you some prayers and support. 🙏🏼🙏🏼 Just focus today on doing the best you can and remember that food isn't going to bring you the comfort you are looking for.
Here is a little video of Penelopes performance from her piano recital l last night, she's been taking lessons for about a year and a half. 🎹🤍🖤
*Livestream Monday night at 4pm pst/7pm est
Thinking about the year ahead can be overwhelming when it comes to goal setting. For some people, like me, short term goals can be much more motivating. Right now it's beast mode through the Meetup this Saturday. That said, I do still have long term goals for the year. Staying carnivore is just a given now as it's my life already so I have to dive a little deeper for me. I'd like to stay in the same weight range but lower my body fat a bit. Gain some muscle mass in short. Gym at least 4 times a week and beast mode at the same time is my recipe.
Steak video for interest. 🤪
Do you do better with short or long term goals?
So sorry guys, my 2 1/2 hour drive home from the cabin is turning into a 5+ hour drive home so I am not going to make it in time to Livestream tonight. I'll post the link for the Dr Berry Livestream for tomorrow when I know it. I'll catch up on posts here when I get home if you have any questions.
While Laura has been a beast every day, walking mile after mile, I have been having to basically reduce to my movement to close to zero. On Monday during jiu jitsu class, my training partner accidentally whacked his knee right on mine. It's been swollen and sore ever since. Definitely a bone bruise and nothing structural thankfully. No walks and no class for the rest of the week at least. Problem is my appetite doesn't go away, and with the reduction in my mental health time (walking), I want to eat constantly. With my normal activity levels, I can eat liberally and maintain or lose. This week is a struggle and I will stall or likely gain. Once a food addict, always a food addict. After 7 years this is still a challenge.
Do you feel you have food addiction? What's your go to strategy to mitigate it?
Turns out I might have a cold…. Again! 😡
Accountability post:
So I went to WinnDixie & got a Vicks nasal inhaler to help clear my nose.
I have a tincture (from my boss who’s in functional medicine, and it’s from plants 😳🙄, but it works, so I’ve taken a large dose twice yesterday, and this morning.)
And I purchase organic half and half as the non organic cream was trash and Greek yoghurt. And pork rinds.
I’ve had pork rind “cereal” hot tip, serve cold not warmed!
I’ve made myself a carnivore hot cocoa.
So im carnivore comfort fooding myself today.
I know that means weight loss will be slow, but IDC. I am here for more than weight loss, I’m here for health in many ways.
I still haven’t had tea, I think as of today, it’s been a full week!
I’m also envious of the fact that my husband has stayed sick free for months now, and I’ve been sick 3 times!
Oh, and we had a friendly deer in the back yard that my toddle nanny baby was laughing at.
Good morning to everyone. I am still on track and have decided to do a "little" refining... I am still in the process of creating a life-sustainable good habit. I can not believe how well I am doing with this lifestyle. Today is just a little check-in. I hope to get myself in gear and get outside in the sunshine today. Wishing everyone a good, joyful, and strong day in all you do. I found myself extremely busy yesterday and was unable to post. I am so looking forward to reading everyone's posts from yesterday and today. God bless. This week is flying by. Love to all.
