Cheese is good! I ate a block of chipotle oven baked cheese with lunch yesterday and it was divine. I love it, but know that it halts any progress I'm making, and will even trigger eating in excess to where I'll gain weight. It's sad but I have accepted it. If I eat it in small quantities with a meal, it's ok, but I really have to work to keep it in check.

What's your favorite cheese? How do you incorporate it? Do you see negative results when eating it?

Happy Sunday! Sharing a video today from our week, one of the highlights. This was Wednesday evening church, normally they have a more casual prayer meeting where someone plays the guitar, but they were doing some construction in the fellowship hall so they had their prayer meeting in the sanctuary. No one was there to play the piano so my my Grandma did it, she's been playing the piano in church for probably 80 years.

For context, she's 88, she had a really bad fall 5 years ago now and hit her head and ended up with a lot setbacks, similar to having a stroke. She has a lot of dementia like symptoms also (I am sure related to her Type 2 diabetes), she really can't read music anymore, and she has trouble seeing well, and she needs to wear hearing aids to hear but hates wearing them, so on this night she didn't want to wear them. My 93 (almost 94) year old grandpa takes care of both of them on their farm. Anyway, on this night she sat down on the piano and led worship as people called ...

Happy Saturday! I hope you are all doing well. I know some people in the group have had some recent tough news for themselves or family members. It really puts the day to day issues we face into perspective, and reminds me to just focus on doing the best I can to be as healthy as possible. To those who are having a hard time, we are all here for you and sending you some prayers and support. 🙏🏼🙏🏼 Just focus today on doing the best you can and remember that food isn't going to bring you the comfort you are looking for.

Here is a little video of Penelopes performance from her piano recital l last night, she's been taking lessons for about a year and a half. 🎹🤍🖤

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Happy Saturday!! Whew it has been a jam packed week for me, really busy and a roller coaster of emotions. I am so so glad it's the weekend and I have a few days off next week as well.

We have a fun family day planned with my Mom today, and then going out to lunch at the Greek restaurant we like (chicken, beef, and shrimp kabobs). I am sure we will go on lots of walks as well as play games.

What are your plans for the weekend??

Today would have been my brother's birthday, he died when he was 13. It's crazy to think of him as an adult, much less 43 years old. Penelope is currently the age I was when he died, and Nathaniel the same age my younger brother was. The older my kids get the more I just can't imagine what my Mom went through. We are glad she is visiting for a couple weeks and we get to spend this time with her.

I talked about this a bit on a recent Livestream, but how we handle days like this drastically changes when we can no longer use food to numb ourselves. That's the hardest part of long term weight loss, is learning to manage the hard times, and change our relationship with food. It's still a work in progress, but for today I am glad to be surrounded by family and honoring the memory of my brother Jonathan. And I am so thankful we are all healthy and safe.