Happy Wed! I am officially 3 weeks post op from my surgery and healing really well. I still get sore and am swollen by the end of the day but this has been much easier healing than the tummy tuck.
It is strange though how our mind plays tricks with us (body dysmorphia). Some moments I look in the mirror and think how small my arms look and other times I think they look the same as before. That's been a very tricky thing with weight loss overall. Someone recently asked me how I see myself, do I see myself before I lose weight or do I really see myself as I am now.
Too be honest it really depends on the day, and it's probably somewhere in between. It is really hard to see noticeable changes in ourselves day to day, and often times we can't really see how far we've come at all. We spend too much time criticizing the parts of ourself we still aren't happy with.
This is why I always talk about how important it is to take pictures! I was feeling swollen and very puffy yesterday , I make this collage of myself and went, 😳"Dang okay that is a big difference". And then I look back at pictures of myself from before I lost weight and it's just so crazy the difference. Yet why do I have a hard time accepting that sometimes?
My friend Ashley in the YouTube interview I did with her joked she had the opposite problem. Even at her heaviest she always thought she was smaller than she was, and then once she lost weight she liked back at pictures and said "Wait I was actually that heavy?"
What has they been like for you? Do you have a hard time seeing how far you've come when you look in the mirror? Do you see yourself for how you are now or are you only focus on what else you need to change?
Cheese is good! I ate a block of chipotle oven baked cheese with lunch yesterday and it was divine. I love it, but know that it halts any progress I'm making, and will even trigger eating in excess to where I'll gain weight. It's sad but I have accepted it. If I eat it in small quantities with a meal, it's ok, but I really have to work to keep it in check.
What's your favorite cheese? How do you incorporate it? Do you see negative results when eating it?
Happy Sunday! Sharing a video today from our week, one of the highlights. This was Wednesday evening church, normally they have a more casual prayer meeting where someone plays the guitar, but they were doing some construction in the fellowship hall so they had their prayer meeting in the sanctuary. No one was there to play the piano so my my Grandma did it, she's been playing the piano in church for probably 80 years.
For context, she's 88, she had a really bad fall 5 years ago now and hit her head and ended up with a lot setbacks, similar to having a stroke. She has a lot of dementia like symptoms also (I am sure related to her Type 2 diabetes), she really can't read music anymore, and she has trouble seeing well, and she needs to wear hearing aids to hear but hates wearing them, so on this night she didn't want to wear them. My 93 (almost 94) year old grandpa takes care of both of them on their farm. Anyway, on this night she sat down on the piano and led worship as people called ...
Happy Saturday! I hope you are all doing well. I know some people in the group have had some recent tough news for themselves or family members. It really puts the day to day issues we face into perspective, and reminds me to just focus on doing the best I can to be as healthy as possible. To those who are having a hard time, we are all here for you and sending you some prayers and support. 🙏🏼🙏🏼 Just focus today on doing the best you can and remember that food isn't going to bring you the comfort you are looking for.
Here is a little video of Penelopes performance from her piano recital l last night, she's been taking lessons for about a year and a half. 🎹🤍🖤
*Livestream Monday night at 4pm pst/7pm est
My Mom arrived safely last night, we are looking forward to a fun visit with her. We saw her and of Aug in WV but last time she was in AZ was right before July 4th, which is the worst time of year in AZ because of the heat. We are excited to take lots of walks outside this week and enjoy the 'slightly' cooler weather.
Thank you to everyone that hung out on the Livestream last night. We talked a lot about meal prepping and then at the end I talked about my recent bloodwork results. I'll be expanding on that more in the future as I wrap my head around it.
Have you listened to any good podcasts lately? What shield I add to my current playlist?
Hey Y'all!! I had coffee today and some heavy cream. I don't regret it because I needed the boost of energy it gave me to get some stuff done. I'm working on getting my house completely in order; so that my husband can keep it that way while I'm recovering from my surgery. Along with baking a lot this week for others. Here's my accountability stats. Have a good night. BLESSINGS!!
I think I missed a live? 😱 Still picking corn, so my time at home is not my own. Chores, putting away pots still and then to the field for a truck ride and get him home for the night.
We'll be done soon and you all will wish we weren't cuz I'll be here all the time! LOL
Fresh Air/sunshine/exercise
Short walks during the day, then chores and field
M1: Coffee x2 ( @Karas-Stanley, I whipped up the last of the HWC this evening. I have day or two and then my jeans will start to fit again.)
M2: prosciutto /cheese rolls, feta & olives and pork rinds (girl lunch from Wm)
M3: Jalepeno sausage and chicken breast chunks in the AF.
Ok, off to bed. HUGS!
