Happy Friday!! Chris is going to California this weekend to hang out with his friends. (He grew up there). He's a stay-at-home Dad so an occasional weekend away is much needed! In years passed being alone for the weekend would have brought out all my addiction behaviors. I would already be thinking about the food I was going to see secretly order, everything I was going to eat, and then how I could hide the evidence before he came home. What's crazy is that I wasn't even hiding it because I was worried about Chris shaming me for eating bad...I just wanted to do it all alone.
Recently I realized where this behavior started for me. When I was 16/17 years old my parents were newly divorced and for the first time I would be alone for a weekend occasionally when my Mom would go out of town with my little brother. You would think a teenager home alone for the weekend would throw parties or something...but I would just go to the grocery store, but a bunch of junk food, and stay on the couch watching movies and eating all weekend.
It was a really insightful moment for me when I finally connected those things together. I realized the emotions that behavior was coming from. When I finally made that connection it made working through it a lot easier. I know that isolation feeds this behavior for me. Now when Chris goes out of town I tend to schedule playdates or lunch with girlfriends who won't be eating junk. I find some fun things for the kids and I to do or we play a new game or do some crafting. We might even go out to eat someplace that is fun for me to eat Carnivore.
But above all else I take things one day at a time. One moment at a time. I remember WHY I am doing this. I also make sure to not put to much pressure on myself and just focus on that one non-negotiable thing.
This weekend being Halloween especially makes me realize how much of a bender I would have been on previously and how far I have come. Even if this week hasn't been perfect for you today is a new day. You don't have wait till after Halloween or wait till Tuesday November 1st. Today is a new day. What are your plans for the weekend?
Yesterday we surprised the kids and brought home a puppy!! They have been begging for one for years and we felt like the time was right to bring one home.
Meet Angus 🐕 He's a Golden Retriever/King Charles Cavalier Spaniel mix. He's 11 weeks old and currently weighs about 8 pounds, he should be around 35 pounds fully grown. I know it will be an adjustment for a while as he gets potty trained etc but we are so excited. 😂 Wish us luck! 🤪
Cheese is good! I ate a block of chipotle oven baked cheese with lunch yesterday and it was divine. I love it, but know that it halts any progress I'm making, and will even trigger eating in excess to where I'll gain weight. It's sad but I have accepted it. If I eat it in small quantities with a meal, it's ok, but I really have to work to keep it in check.
What's your favorite cheese? How do you incorporate it? Do you see negative results when eating it?
Happy Sunday! Sharing a video today from our week, one of the highlights. This was Wednesday evening church, normally they have a more casual prayer meeting where someone plays the guitar, but they were doing some construction in the fellowship hall so they had their prayer meeting in the sanctuary. No one was there to play the piano so my my Grandma did it, she's been playing the piano in church for probably 80 years.
For context, she's 88, she had a really bad fall 5 years ago now and hit her head and ended up with a lot setbacks, similar to having a stroke. She has a lot of dementia like symptoms also (I am sure related to her Type 2 diabetes), she really can't read music anymore, and she has trouble seeing well, and she needs to wear hearing aids to hear but hates wearing them, so on this night she didn't want to wear them. My 93 (almost 94) year old grandpa takes care of both of them on their farm. Anyway, on this night she sat down on the piano and led worship as people called ...
Happy Tuesday! Thanks to those that hung out on the Livestream last night. One of the topics we talked about is breaking a stall. And unfortunately the best advice I have for breaking a stall is "keep it boring" and just stay consistent. Honestly that's been my motto this year. I love variety of course, but the more simple/boring I keep things with my food the better results I get. Usually when we add "variety" we add a lot of diary, or carbs, or those replacement recipes that increase cravings or contain hidden dairy/carbs/calories.
It might be hard to get into a routine at first but I do find that just eating the same things most days is actually a lot easier. And if you really enjoy that food (and know how to cook it), you'll still look forward to it each day.
If you're feeling stuck, just focus on consistency and keeping that food simple, and I PROMISE it will work...you just have to be patient.
Boring =Results! Have you found this to be true for you?
Happy Tuesday evening!
We spent the day at the farm show w/out 5 yo who didn't feel well. Which was probably good as it was windy, cold, rainy. We figured we walked 3+ miles. So lots of fresh air and exercise.
We ate breakfast on the way (location is an hour away from our house.) They had a Chicken Club Protein Bowl, so I had that. The "cheese" was plastic american cheese and it had tomatoes on it; but otherwise it was just eggs, bacon and chicken breast. I also had about 1/2 of my normal protein coffee on the drive.
We skipped lunch.
After some farm errands in that city, we came home to chore and go through all the swag we got. Caps, tee-shirts, flashlights, rain gauges, fly swatters, chip clips, pens and I seriously will never have to buy another note pad or sticky notepad, ever! And of course the nice grocery bags and 5 gallon buckets.
Then we took the grandkids swag in to them. Stickers, caps, corn hats, coloring pages, rubber bracelets, pencils.
Then we went to our Mexican ...
