Happy Friday!! Chris is going to California this weekend to hang out with his friends. (He grew up there). He's a stay-at-home Dad so an occasional weekend away is much needed! In years passed being alone for the weekend would have brought out all my addiction behaviors. I would already be thinking about the food I was going to see secretly order, everything I was going to eat, and then how I could hide the evidence before he came home. What's crazy is that I wasn't even hiding it because I was worried about Chris shaming me for eating bad...I just wanted to do it all alone.
Recently I realized where this behavior started for me. When I was 16/17 years old my parents were newly divorced and for the first time I would be alone for a weekend occasionally when my Mom would go out of town with my little brother. You would think a teenager home alone for the weekend would throw parties or something...but I would just go to the grocery store, but a bunch of junk food, and stay on the couch watching movies and eating all weekend.
It was a really insightful moment for me when I finally connected those things together. I realized the emotions that behavior was coming from. When I finally made that connection it made working through it a lot easier. I know that isolation feeds this behavior for me. Now when Chris goes out of town I tend to schedule playdates or lunch with girlfriends who won't be eating junk. I find some fun things for the kids and I to do or we play a new game or do some crafting. We might even go out to eat someplace that is fun for me to eat Carnivore.
But above all else I take things one day at a time. One moment at a time. I remember WHY I am doing this. I also make sure to not put to much pressure on myself and just focus on that one non-negotiable thing.
This weekend being Halloween especially makes me realize how much of a bender I would have been on previously and how far I have come. Even if this week hasn't been perfect for you today is a new day. You don't have wait till after Halloween or wait till Tuesday November 1st. Today is a new day. What are your plans for the weekend?
I don't typically love cooking with cast iron, despite the excellent results they can bring. It's messy and smells up the house. Add to that, the one we have is super old and not very good. We were recently gifted a really good one from Lancaster Cast Iron so today I decided to give it a try. We have a side burner on our Weber so I could do it outside. I sous vide a steak, then seared it in tallow on the new pan. Man it was incredible. What a difference it made from our old one. Super easy clean up too. Below is the pan, of course I forgot to take a picture of the steak haha.
Do you love using cast iron? What are some favorites you make in them?
Yesterday we surprised the kids and brought home a puppy!! They have been begging for one for years and we felt like the time was right to bring one home.
Meet Angus 🐕 He's a Golden Retriever/King Charles Cavalier Spaniel mix. He's 11 weeks old and currently weighs about 8 pounds, he should be around 35 pounds fully grown. I know it will be an adjustment for a while as he gets potty trained etc but we are so excited. 😂 Wish us luck! 🤪
Cheese is good! I ate a block of chipotle oven baked cheese with lunch yesterday and it was divine. I love it, but know that it halts any progress I'm making, and will even trigger eating in excess to where I'll gain weight. It's sad but I have accepted it. If I eat it in small quantities with a meal, it's ok, but I really have to work to keep it in check.
What's your favorite cheese? How do you incorporate it? Do you see negative results when eating it?
Happy Friday!! We are supposed to have a VERY rainy weekend here in Arizona, which is very rare for us. It might even mean that trick or treating is cancelled. 🎉😂 I always trade the kids for their candy anyway so fine by me if we don't even have to go out. Plus Penelope said she's too old for trick or treating and said she'll just skip it and take the money. 🤪😂
Other than that and church we have no plans this weekend, which I am excited about after a busy week. I might go get a day pass at a new gym that has a fancy steam room/sauna and cold plunge.
What are your plans for this weekend?
Happy Friday Evening Family!!
(Oh No! she's back!!) Sing some praises with me; the 2026 harvest is out of the field!! Farmer Hubby finished the corn today, the end in the rain. He ended up leaving a few rows in the field due to wet spots and steep new terraces; but the rest is out, including where the creek flooded and left logs/limbs. He got those picked up today.
You have no idea how grateful and relieved we are. This harvest kicked our behinds. We are getting older and the push and stress were something else. But now we're done. He'll clean up the combine and grain cart and truck and store them away for winter over the next few days/week. Then we'll concentrate on getting the cattle home and then winterizing what needs to be winterized.
Anywho... just wanted to report in that I'll be more "here."
Accountablility
Fresh air/sunshine/exercise/sleep
Not much/none (rain)/walking while doing errands/terrible with leg cramps for several hours.
Food
M1: Coffee and a chicken meat stick
M2: Carnivore...
Good Evening Y'all!! Day 30 of dairy free except butter and no eggs. Day 20 of no coffee. I have almost made it through my first goal. Starting a new goal Sunday. Y'all today was hard. I don't know why I craved so many sweets today. But I stayed strong because I don't want to botch my progress. I forgot to log my 6 little snackum' dill pickles tonight with dinner.
Here's my stats for the day.
