Happy Friday!! Chris is going to California this weekend to hang out with his friends. (He grew up there). He's a stay-at-home Dad so an occasional weekend away is much needed! In years passed being alone for the weekend would have brought out all my addiction behaviors. I would already be thinking about the food I was going to see secretly order, everything I was going to eat, and then how I could hide the evidence before he came home. What's crazy is that I wasn't even hiding it because I was worried about Chris shaming me for eating bad...I just wanted to do it all alone.
Recently I realized where this behavior started for me. When I was 16/17 years old my parents were newly divorced and for the first time I would be alone for a weekend occasionally when my Mom would go out of town with my little brother. You would think a teenager home alone for the weekend would throw parties or something...but I would just go to the grocery store, but a bunch of junk food, and stay on the couch watching movies and eating all weekend.
It was a really insightful moment for me when I finally connected those things together. I realized the emotions that behavior was coming from. When I finally made that connection it made working through it a lot easier. I know that isolation feeds this behavior for me. Now when Chris goes out of town I tend to schedule playdates or lunch with girlfriends who won't be eating junk. I find some fun things for the kids and I to do or we play a new game or do some crafting. We might even go out to eat someplace that is fun for me to eat Carnivore.
But above all else I take things one day at a time. One moment at a time. I remember WHY I am doing this. I also make sure to not put to much pressure on myself and just focus on that one non-negotiable thing.
This weekend being Halloween especially makes me realize how much of a bender I would have been on previously and how far I have come. Even if this week hasn't been perfect for you today is a new day. You don't have wait till after Halloween or wait till Tuesday November 1st. Today is a new day. What are your plans for the weekend?
Yesterday we surprised the kids and brought home a puppy!! They have been begging for one for years and we felt like the time was right to bring one home.
Meet Angus 🐕 He's a Golden Retriever/King Charles Cavalier Spaniel mix. He's 11 weeks old and currently weighs about 8 pounds, he should be around 35 pounds fully grown. I know it will be an adjustment for a while as he gets potty trained etc but we are so excited. 😂 Wish us luck! 🤪
Cheese is good! I ate a block of chipotle oven baked cheese with lunch yesterday and it was divine. I love it, but know that it halts any progress I'm making, and will even trigger eating in excess to where I'll gain weight. It's sad but I have accepted it. If I eat it in small quantities with a meal, it's ok, but I really have to work to keep it in check.
What's your favorite cheese? How do you incorporate it? Do you see negative results when eating it?
Happy Sunday! Sharing a video today from our week, one of the highlights. This was Wednesday evening church, normally they have a more casual prayer meeting where someone plays the guitar, but they were doing some construction in the fellowship hall so they had their prayer meeting in the sanctuary. No one was there to play the piano so my my Grandma did it, she's been playing the piano in church for probably 80 years.
For context, she's 88, she had a really bad fall 5 years ago now and hit her head and ended up with a lot setbacks, similar to having a stroke. She has a lot of dementia like symptoms also (I am sure related to her Type 2 diabetes), she really can't read music anymore, and she has trouble seeing well, and she needs to wear hearing aids to hear but hates wearing them, so on this night she didn't want to wear them. My 93 (almost 94) year old grandpa takes care of both of them on their farm. Anyway, on this night she sat down on the piano and led worship as people called ...
Happy Monday! We made it to Big Sky, Montana yesterday, WOW it's so beautiful!! It just feels like you are in a movie all the time. We grilled steaks and just spent lots of time outside enjoying the beautiful weather.
The house we are staying in is owned by LMNT, so it has all kinds of electrolytes and wellness goodies everywhere. Plus all kinds of natural soaps and laundry soaps etc. They host a lot of meetings here so one of the walls upstairs is a huge dry erase board so the kids are having fun drawing on it.
We sat in the sauna 🥵 and took turns doing the cold plunge. 🥶 Today we are going hiking and white water rafting.
How was your weekend? What is your non-negotiable for this week?
Happy Sunday! We made it to Idaho Falls last night, it was just a stop over place for us and we had no idea that it would be so beautiful. We got here early in the evening after the hot springs and had a really lovely walk along the river. The weather has been so nice!! We are only 3 hours from Big Sky so headed over there this morning, we are staying in a house there for 5 days. I am excited to stay in one place for a few days. 😂 We are super excited because the house we are staying in has a cold plunge, a sauna, and a gym.
What are your plans today? You doing any prep for the week ahead?
Yesterday we had a PACKED day and some really amazing experiences!! We started the morning in Page Arizona looking at the Glen Canyon Dam, which opens up to the beginning of the Grand Canyon. It looks like you're on a totally different planet!
We then headed up to Redmond, and stopped along the way to take a hike up to some Salt Caves. The drive alone was just amazing as well!
In the afternoon we took a tour of the Redmond Salt mine, WOW what a cool experience!! We went down 700 feet and were completely surrounded by salt! They have 29 miles of tunnels through the mine! I will tell you all about it on a future Livestream! But we all licked the walls and the kids got to mine for their own salt rocks!
We ended the day just south of Salt Lake City. It was a super packed day but thankfully everything went very smoothly.
Today is going to be much more relaxing, and the kids planned the perfect "Mom" day. A slow morning followed by a soak in some Lava Hot Springs this afternoon. ...
